Adara leai (lee-aye)
First one is a boy the other two are girls:)
Good night, I love you more than anything and I’m happier than I’ve ever been to have you back in my life. I pinky promise and swear on everything that i wont hurt you or pull any of that shit again. I realized that it was horrible and like the worst way possible to handle things. I’m sorry that I could barely talk earlier, I was set back by everything and my mind went completely blank. But when you kissed me it took my breath away, my heart like skipped a beat and it was probably the worst time that I’ve ever gotten butterflies, it was like fireworks in my belly and I didn’t even know what to do. I’m incredibly grateful that you have me another chance and nothing I do could ever show you that, so just take my word for it. I can’t think about the future to much right now because it scares the hell out of me, and I can’t look in the past otherwise I’ll get nowhere and just feel horrible. So let’s just take everything day by day and step by step and we’ll see how far we get in life together. I love you more than before and way more than I could ever show or describe. The break up showed that I need you and that you’re part of me now. It killed me when I thought about it and I tried convincing myself I was happy but with how much I talked and thought about you I knew it wasn’t right and whenever anyone brought us up it killed me, I knew what needed to be done, I was just terrified of being rejected. You are my one and only and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you💜
I knew I was pushing myself too hard I just couldn’t stop myself from pushing even harder and now I feel terrible and so stupid. It’s not like I don’t know doing that is bad for me I just think to myself that if I keep pushing myself and pushing myself I’ll become perfect. I don’t even think that I could injure myself really badly, all I think is that if I push myself I’ll be the perfect student who becomes the perfect dancer.